家人vs.朋友

有时真的很沮丧

明明很用心努力地想做好我的角色

不论是朋友还是家人

只要有多余的时间

我都会挪出来

可是我却没有一样是做好的

我也不知道

为什么我总都做不好

家人与朋友

我明明都一样珍惜啊。。。

或许我真的很不善于表达吧。。

妈妈觉得我总放太多时间陪朋友

都没有真的好好关心及多跟家人相处

而朋友们。。。

应该已把我设定于放飞机女王了吧。。。

不过还好，我还是挺幸运的

还是有些很明白事理的朋友

有时只是个微笑，点点头表示理解

真的让我觉得好过多了

我都还来不及解释，她／他竟然都明白了？

或许那就是所谓的知音吧

所以后来我明白了一点

知我者，知也

不知我者，又何必强求。。。

Waiting for my calling

Being kinda lost n confused recently...

am i wanting too much at once?

asking myself

am i too greedy? 

im enthusiastic in many thgs

languages...musics...philosophy...

i enjoyed learning all sorts of diff special thgs

 i just cant stop my curiosity

i do what i love

n i go after it

that's me

it sounds kinda a gud thg isnt it

but here comes the problem

i ended taking up many things at the same time

n i doubted if i can do best in each

as my concentration level has been divided

even in Marketing study encourages Niche Marketing

to offset d risk in serving no one n no where

linked it to myself

im afraid i might ended up serving no where

know something about everythg

but be good at NOTHING

life is an option

making choices

n specialize on it
that's the norms

but wont it b boring to just do one thing in ur entire life?

hmmmmm

searching for the answer
n
waiting for the calling

still

Meaningful Quotes :)

Here are some meaningful quotes i'd like to share in this beautiful Saturday :)

♥ Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own Sunshine. - Anthony J. D'Angelo

♥ A smile is the light in the window of your face that tells people you are at home. 

♥ Turn your face to the sun and let the shadows fall behind. 

♥ Live in rooms full of light. - Cornelius Celsus

♥ Beauty is not in the face; Beauty is a light in the heart. - Kahlil Gibran

♥ It's simple to be happy, but it's very difficult to be simple. - Tagore Rabindranath

What you mean to me?

Thought i've already forgotten everything...

Bt i just realised there is still a small part in me
are still holding on n haven't let go...

When my mp3 randomly played til a song he once sang...

All memories just flowed out...i just couldn't stop them...

N surprisingly, they are still as clear as though thgs dat happened yst...

However, i appreciate these memories...i accept them as part of me...

They somehow contrasted the happiness of others...

I swear i wont skip this song whenever i hear it,
i'll play until i become numb n feeling-less towards it...

N laugh at myself who once being so foolish...

Halleluyah CHANCE~ ;)

cant stop thinking of 'it' while doing assignment
so i ended up being - h e r e -  haha..
finally saw her profile 2day! which i've curious for some times...
been curious of wat kind of person she is likely to be...
a girl that he loved...a girl that he chose, over me....
though im 99% cured...
bt i felt a lit down (ok slightly more than a lit, to be honest) when i saw her profile, her photos...their status...and comments....
strange huh...didnt expect myself to hv this feeling...
though she is kinda emotional type of person n speaks alot of disgraceful foul language,
bt yet hv to admit that she is pretty...thin...n most importantly, he loves her.
n can see that she has occupied a huge space in his heart...n she meant alot to him...
mayb emotional her+ emotional him= emotional perfect match? haha...

angel: ahhh...stop being so depress and upset...! this is so not me!
i should transform this energy into motivation instead! be at the best n meet the best. n makes him regret!
devil: nahhh...he wont regret...they r so sweet now n he loves her....
angel: nvm...u should b happy u r not wt a jerk, at least!
'u deserves a better one' remembering my twins told me :)
'yes, i deserve a better one...' telling myself :)

Halleluyah CHANCE~  ;)

Goodbye, Love fool.

I feel really thankful to have u guys by my side....

Feeling much better after all...

u guys made me laugh so much, and distracted myself from the bad feelings...

n those concerns really warmth me...

i wouldn't get well so soon without u guys companion...

though sometimes it still hurt when thinking of it...

but it makes me grow n become more matured in love...

remember there is a scene in Eat Pray Love that i found it very meaningful and memorable..

"If you love him, then love him. If you miss him, then miss him.

Send him some love and light every time you think about him,

then drop it.

If you clear out all the space in your mind that you're using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot- a doorway.

And guess what the universe will do with the doorway?

It will rush in- and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed.

So stop using him to block that door.

Let it go."

I really love this movie....it gave me alot of enlightenment of how to letting go....

Thinking and looking at myself, found it kinda ridiculous...

we didn't even get together, y am i just like those who just broke up...

i overestimated myself, thinking i could well-controlled my own feelings and emotions...

bt obviously, im just another fool in love...never thought of it could be so painful and could have such an impact on me....haha....

However, let the bygone be the bygone!

I will flush off those space he used to occupy and start my life with infinity great chance of love.

Here I am, my grand new life! :)