暮光

听着范范的新歌，让我感受到了新希望。。。

她的歌声中传达了她的那份幸福与喜悦。。。仿佛真的看见了暮光。。。

感觉很轻松。。。

在这里分享一下她的其中两首新歌－'最重要的决定' & '暮光'

希望你们也会感受到那股力量与幸福 ：）

I will be fine...

Had an outing with a nice n perfect guy 2day...

i know this is a guy i could totally trust on, and a guy who wont hurt me for surely...

but im frustrated with myself...for not falling for a nice guy like him...

fell for a total jerk instead...a heartbreaker....

though im trying to distract myself from thinking of him...but i couldnt!

i feel so powerless....the every corner of the place reminds me of him!

every expression of him r still so clear as if happened yesterday...

everythg is jz too sudden without a clue...i still couldnt accept it...

kept asking myself wat's going wrong? why did this happen?

i tried so hard to hide my sadness and sorrow d all day...

dunwan 2 b another jerk dissapoint the gud guy infront of me....

trying to smile lk the normal me...trying to act normal as if nthg happen....

bt the inside me was empty....i felt nothing at all....

there were few times i doubted if my heart is still pounding...

i felt disconnected with the surrounding....

i knew this would be unfair for this gud guy....

bt all i could say is sorry....i said it in my heart repeatedly....

Our program goes: lunch, movie, dinner, movie....

then we ended our day wt a gudbye....

when i got in my car preparing 2 leave...

all of the sadness i've hidden for so hard burst into tears....

i couldnt stop my eyes from leaking.....

i was just depending on my subconscious to drove me home...

i hardly sees the lights and the direction...

all i see was the reflection of our memory....

so real...yet so far....

could any1 pls extract or delete this part of my memory??

this memory makes me feel so breathless....

n now only i realised hw much i've gotten myself into....

never in my control...i totally hv no idea hw deep i've thrown myself in....

i think i love him....n i miss him....

more than i expected....

can som1 pls give me a hand n pull me up frm drowning...?

i just wan d happy me back....enough for this emo me...feel so strange....

all i can tell myself is 'i will be fine'....

yes...i will be fine....