Halleluyah CHANCE~ ;)

cant stop thinking of 'it' while doing assignment
so i ended up being - h e r e -  haha..
finally saw her profile 2day! which i've curious for some times...
been curious of wat kind of person she is likely to be...
a girl that he loved...a girl that he chose, over me....
though im 99% cured...
bt i felt a lit down (ok slightly more than a lit, to be honest) when i saw her profile, her photos...their status...and comments....
strange huh...didnt expect myself to hv this feeling...
though she is kinda emotional type of person n speaks alot of disgraceful foul language,
bt yet hv to admit that she is pretty...thin...n most importantly, he loves her.
n can see that she has occupied a huge space in his heart...n she meant alot to him...
mayb emotional her+ emotional him= emotional perfect match? haha...

angel: ahhh...stop being so depress and upset...! this is so not me!
i should transform this energy into motivation instead! be at the best n meet the best. n makes him regret!
devil: nahhh...he wont regret...they r so sweet now n he loves her....
angel: nvm...u should b happy u r not wt a jerk, at least!
'u deserves a better one' remembering my twins told me :)
'yes, i deserve a better one...' telling myself :)

Halleluyah CHANCE~  ;)

Goodbye, Love fool.

I feel really thankful to have u guys by my side....

Feeling much better after all...

u guys made me laugh so much, and distracted myself from the bad feelings...

n those concerns really warmth me...

i wouldn't get well so soon without u guys companion...

though sometimes it still hurt when thinking of it...

but it makes me grow n become more matured in love...

remember there is a scene in Eat Pray Love that i found it very meaningful and memorable..

"If you love him, then love him. If you miss him, then miss him.

Send him some love and light every time you think about him,

then drop it.

If you clear out all the space in your mind that you're using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot- a doorway.

And guess what the universe will do with the doorway?

It will rush in- and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed.

So stop using him to block that door.

Let it go."

I really love this movie....it gave me alot of enlightenment of how to letting go....

Thinking and looking at myself, found it kinda ridiculous...

we didn't even get together, y am i just like those who just broke up...

i overestimated myself, thinking i could well-controlled my own feelings and emotions...

bt obviously, im just another fool in love...never thought of it could be so painful and could have such an impact on me....haha....

However, let the bygone be the bygone!

I will flush off those space he used to occupy and start my life with infinity great chance of love.

Here I am, my grand new life! :)