My Sweet 21♥

October the 14th, 2011.

There is a girl in town who born 1990,

turned 21.

AND

"THAT'S ME! :D"

♥ Happy Birthday to ME! ♥

First of all, 

Thanks GOD! Thanks for giving me the best mum in the world!

Ma, thanks. 

Thanks for being my mum.

Thanks for making me the happiest person in the world.

Without you, I wouldn't be who I am today.

I may not good with words. But I meant the every words I said. 

Truthfully & heartily.

If there's next life and if I have given choice, 

You are the only one I want and I would call- "MUM".

Not anyone else, but YOU!

I LOVE YOU!!!

♥♥♥

Though this birthday party was a very sudden decision, 

but thanks to my mum who organized and arranged everything, made it such a fantastic & unforgettable 21 ever!

Again, merci beaucoup maman! ♥

The following are some photos of that night :)

♥ My beloved aunt ♥

♥ Ma Mere ♥

♥ My Tua Ee ♥

♥ My cute cousin, Ai Ling JieJie ♥

 ♥ My cousin aka zhi yin, Ben ♥

♥ My twins, JunJun ♥                        

  ♥ My Forever Best Friend, Kimmie♥  

 ♥ My Cute Best friend,Yugi ♥

        

My spongebob fren, PaiPai ♥

                                            

♥ AhChuan and his gf Miko ♥ 

♥ Felicia and Ahuiii~~ ♥

♥ PaiPai and her lovely cousin YongYong ♥

Say Michelin~

♥ My superb teachers! as well as life coaches♥

♥ Happie Familie :D ♥

♥ Happie Friends :D ♥

♥ Polaroids with besties ♥

♥  Pink roses from my beautiful besties KimKiminie! ♥

Life is just like flowers.
It blooms and it fade away in just a blink of an eye.


If i'd have to answer
"What will be your shortest moment in life?"
I'd say...
The moment where everything seems to be so beautiful & wonderful.


By knowing this truth,
it added a great sense of insecurity.


You wouldn't know when will the bell of 12 o'clock rings.
It could possibly be any next minute.


Once the clock stroke,
the magical spell will gone forever.
Golden carriage turns into pumpkin,
horses into mice,
 beautiful ball gown into just a piece of rag...


However, ironically,
it's beautiful also because it's short.
Just like the fireworks.
Please allow me...


'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh oh oh
As you shoot across the sky

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh oh oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down'



Nutshell:
Lets live our life like beautiful fireworks!
Short
BUT
Remarkable.

The Enlightenment from the Little Prince

Recently been reading a book titled The Little Prince

Have long been heard of ppl mentioning the little prince

but dont really know about the story

so when i saw this book in the Leo Bookstore at Island Plaza

i bought it home :)

And now, im in love with this book 

it somehow reflected the something in me

or should i say, 'they matched'.

It was saying, 

the grown-ups love to see things from the surface n judge from the outside.

They see only tangible things

the intangible one was always being neglected

n it was usually the most precious one.

For instance, 

when you tell them that you have made a new fren

they never ask you questions about the essential matters such as

"What does his voice sound like?"

"What games does he love best?"

"Does he collect butterflies?"

Instead,

they asked: "How old is he?"

"How many brothers has he?"

"How tall is he?"

that is what differentiate the grown-ups and the kids

the grown-ups loves figures

they think they can only learn something about the person from these figures

If you were say to the grown-ups:

"I saw a beautiful house made of rosy brick, french windows, and doves on the roof"

they would not get any idea of the house at all.

You'd have to say:

"I saw a house that cost 3million!"

then they'd claim: 

"Wow, what a pretty house that is!"

I realised

The older we become, the more 'ordinary' we are

we have to be submissive in order to fit in the society

following the rules...the regulations...the norms...even the thought

proving 'we are the same' in order to get their approval

and so we wont be alienated

Many was born to be musicians and artists

they had so much talent when they were kids

but ended up grown up into such an 'ordinary' working group

struggling to be someone who they think they 'should be'

working from 9 to 5

repeating the same thing everyday

doing things they don't even like or enjoy doing

living paycheck to paycheck

months to months

years to years 

n called it a 'life'

Is that what life really should be?

If yes, how boring it is!

is that reli what they want?

do they reli feeling happy?

wouldnt they regret for not brave enough in pursuing their dreams when they gonna past?

is staying in the comfort zone reli feels comfort n happy?

Since they struggled so much n do not feel happy at all

why dont they just pursue their dreams n do something they reli enjoy doing?

wat is the reason stopping them from pursuing their dreams?

The answer is always the same

because of MONEY

they claimed:

"DREAMS and REALITY are always not the same"

"DREAMS cant feed our stomach"

But the problem is,

i dont see many who followed the ordinary path really success financially

many are still complaining about 'not enough'

living in debt

dreaming to be a millionaire

If to say

the consequence of pursuing own dream is the worst

unfortunately,

i dont see following the ordinary path has any better than worst.

In light of this,

why dont we just pursue our own dream since both has almost-the-same-worst risk?

What do you think? :)

家人vs.朋友

有时真的很沮丧

明明很用心努力地想做好我的角色

不论是朋友还是家人

只要有多余的时间

我都会挪出来

可是我却没有一样是做好的

我也不知道

为什么我总都做不好

家人与朋友

我明明都一样珍惜啊。。。

或许我真的很不善于表达吧。。

妈妈觉得我总放太多时间陪朋友

都没有真的好好关心及多跟家人相处

而朋友们。。。

应该已把我设定于放飞机女王了吧。。。

不过还好，我还是挺幸运的

还是有些很明白事理的朋友

有时只是个微笑，点点头表示理解

真的让我觉得好过多了

我都还来不及解释，她／他竟然都明白了？

或许那就是所谓的知音吧

所以后来我明白了一点

知我者，知也

不知我者，又何必强求。。。

Waiting for my calling

Being kinda lost n confused recently...

am i wanting too much at once?

asking myself

am i too greedy? 

im enthusiastic in many thgs

languages...musics...philosophy...

i enjoyed learning all sorts of diff special thgs

 i just cant stop my curiosity

i do what i love

n i go after it

that's me

it sounds kinda a gud thg isnt it

but here comes the problem

i ended taking up many things at the same time

n i doubted if i can do best in each

as my concentration level has been divided

even in Marketing study encourages Niche Marketing

to offset d risk in serving no one n no where

linked it to myself

im afraid i might ended up serving no where

know something about everythg

but be good at NOTHING

life is an option

making choices

n specialize on it
that's the norms

but wont it b boring to just do one thing in ur entire life?

hmmmmm

searching for the answer
n
waiting for the calling

still

Meaningful Quotes :)

Here are some meaningful quotes i'd like to share in this beautiful Saturday :)

♥ Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own Sunshine. - Anthony J. D'Angelo

♥ A smile is the light in the window of your face that tells people you are at home. 

♥ Turn your face to the sun and let the shadows fall behind. 

♥ Live in rooms full of light. - Cornelius Celsus

♥ Beauty is not in the face; Beauty is a light in the heart. - Kahlil Gibran

♥ It's simple to be happy, but it's very difficult to be simple. - Tagore Rabindranath

What you mean to me?

Thought i've already forgotten everything...

Bt i just realised there is still a small part in me
are still holding on n haven't let go...

When my mp3 randomly played til a song he once sang...

All memories just flowed out...i just couldn't stop them...

N surprisingly, they are still as clear as though thgs dat happened yst...

However, i appreciate these memories...i accept them as part of me...

They somehow contrasted the happiness of others...

I swear i wont skip this song whenever i hear it,
i'll play until i become numb n feeling-less towards it...

N laugh at myself who once being so foolish...

Halleluyah CHANCE~ ;)

cant stop thinking of 'it' while doing assignment
so i ended up being - h e r e -  haha..
finally saw her profile 2day! which i've curious for some times...
been curious of wat kind of person she is likely to be...
a girl that he loved...a girl that he chose, over me....
though im 99% cured...
bt i felt a lit down (ok slightly more than a lit, to be honest) when i saw her profile, her photos...their status...and comments....
strange huh...didnt expect myself to hv this feeling...
though she is kinda emotional type of person n speaks alot of disgraceful foul language,
bt yet hv to admit that she is pretty...thin...n most importantly, he loves her.
n can see that she has occupied a huge space in his heart...n she meant alot to him...
mayb emotional her+ emotional him= emotional perfect match? haha...

angel: ahhh...stop being so depress and upset...! this is so not me!
i should transform this energy into motivation instead! be at the best n meet the best. n makes him regret!
devil: nahhh...he wont regret...they r so sweet now n he loves her....
angel: nvm...u should b happy u r not wt a jerk, at least!
'u deserves a better one' remembering my twins told me :)
'yes, i deserve a better one...' telling myself :)

Halleluyah CHANCE~  ;)

Goodbye, Love fool.

I feel really thankful to have u guys by my side....

Feeling much better after all...

u guys made me laugh so much, and distracted myself from the bad feelings...

n those concerns really warmth me...

i wouldn't get well so soon without u guys companion...

though sometimes it still hurt when thinking of it...

but it makes me grow n become more matured in love...

remember there is a scene in Eat Pray Love that i found it very meaningful and memorable..

"If you love him, then love him. If you miss him, then miss him.

Send him some love and light every time you think about him,

then drop it.

If you clear out all the space in your mind that you're using right now to obsess about this guy, you'll have a vacuum there, an open spot- a doorway.

And guess what the universe will do with the doorway?

It will rush in- and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed.

So stop using him to block that door.

Let it go."

I really love this movie....it gave me alot of enlightenment of how to letting go....

Thinking and looking at myself, found it kinda ridiculous...

we didn't even get together, y am i just like those who just broke up...

i overestimated myself, thinking i could well-controlled my own feelings and emotions...

bt obviously, im just another fool in love...never thought of it could be so painful and could have such an impact on me....haha....

However, let the bygone be the bygone!

I will flush off those space he used to occupy and start my life with infinity great chance of love.

Here I am, my grand new life! :)

暮光

听着范范的新歌，让我感受到了新希望。。。

她的歌声中传达了她的那份幸福与喜悦。。。仿佛真的看见了暮光。。。

感觉很轻松。。。

在这里分享一下她的其中两首新歌－'最重要的决定' & '暮光'

希望你们也会感受到那股力量与幸福 ：）

I will be fine...

Had an outing with a nice n perfect guy 2day...

i know this is a guy i could totally trust on, and a guy who wont hurt me for surely...

but im frustrated with myself...for not falling for a nice guy like him...

fell for a total jerk instead...a heartbreaker....

though im trying to distract myself from thinking of him...but i couldnt!

i feel so powerless....the every corner of the place reminds me of him!

every expression of him r still so clear as if happened yesterday...

everythg is jz too sudden without a clue...i still couldnt accept it...

kept asking myself wat's going wrong? why did this happen?

i tried so hard to hide my sadness and sorrow d all day...

dunwan 2 b another jerk dissapoint the gud guy infront of me....

trying to smile lk the normal me...trying to act normal as if nthg happen....

bt the inside me was empty....i felt nothing at all....

there were few times i doubted if my heart is still pounding...

i felt disconnected with the surrounding....

i knew this would be unfair for this gud guy....

bt all i could say is sorry....i said it in my heart repeatedly....

Our program goes: lunch, movie, dinner, movie....

then we ended our day wt a gudbye....

when i got in my car preparing 2 leave...

all of the sadness i've hidden for so hard burst into tears....

i couldnt stop my eyes from leaking.....

i was just depending on my subconscious to drove me home...

i hardly sees the lights and the direction...

all i see was the reflection of our memory....

so real...yet so far....

could any1 pls extract or delete this part of my memory??

this memory makes me feel so breathless....

n now only i realised hw much i've gotten myself into....

never in my control...i totally hv no idea hw deep i've thrown myself in....

i think i love him....n i miss him....

more than i expected....

can som1 pls give me a hand n pull me up frm drowning...?

i just wan d happy me back....enough for this emo me...feel so strange....

all i can tell myself is 'i will be fine'....

yes...i will be fine....

无奈的沉默

心中有好多的不舍

一幕一幕甜美的回忆不断再播映

经过的每个角落

都让你每个表情变得更清晰

我们曾经离幸福那么的近

一瞬间

泡沫般

不见了

还来不及反应

已成为过去

留下的遗憾

说不出

手机整夜响个不停

心中有多难过

这是我多想接的电话

是我多想听的声音

但谁知道这无情的背后

有多少的无奈。。。

音乐将耳膜都淹没了

还是遮掩不了心里的哭泣

才发现

坚强。。。好难。。。

才发现

我在不知不觉中

陷得那么深了

有时沉默。。。

是因为有太多说不出口的无奈。。。

World within a crystal ball

hmmm....1st time feeling so helpless in life...

just realized there are something we really couldn't have it

no matter how hard you want it

no matter how close it seems to be

you just have to surrender and give up

conserve it in a time capsule with love & sorrow

and buried in your deepest heart

which no one can see

Is this so called destiny?

something are just not meant to be together

you are under control

what you need to do is just follow the script

and try your very best to fit in the character you've been positioned

even you tried to escape and be rebelled

it was just a waste of energy

nothing much gonna change

and after all

still you've to believe the reason of all is

'for my own good'

Im like living in a timeless secret garden of Eutopia

where everything is so perfect and beautiful

been isolated from the outside world

just like the crystal ball....

Just wanna BE WITH YOU

I've been following your footsteps all these years,

anything and everything you've had asked me to do,

without questioning.

Though sometimes was an opposition to my heart and willingness,

yet im still doing it out of respect and love.

I dont know if i really love this guy,

but this time,

the 1st time,

I want to make my own choice,

I want to make my own decision.

At least in love,

I want to follow my heart and senses,

experience the rebellions of love.

Even if it may be a mistake,

I will still accept it with a gentle smile and drift with the wind of sorrow,

leave without regrets.

It is the pain,

makes me human;

It is the tears,

differentiating a human and a tree.

I know,

It may not be the best or wise decision,

but I just wanna be with you.

It may not be a blessed relationship,

but why care so much,

I just wanna be with you.

It may be hard and tough to get over those obstacles,

but as long as you are by my side,

having each other at the back supporting,

we will still be able to get over it.

All I want is to be with you....as simple as it is.... :)